Fun fact- as body positive and confident as I am, wearing a swimsuit in public makes me so very anxious. There’s no way you can camouflage the bits you’re not so crazy about, some people stare because apparently they’ve never seen a fat woman before and it’s just a very vulnerable position to put yourself in. I remember being anxious about it during my trip to Thailand and for the most part I was fine even though I was the only fat girl in a swimsuit. I did have one moment where this girl kept staring at me up and down and it made me self conscious but then I remembered I was on one of the most beautiful islands in the world and dived into the water anyway, ha!
My point is, I lived through that uncomfortable moment and I lived through this photo shoot on a very crowded beach with lots of strangers staring at the fat girl trying to model in a neon coral swimsuit. I promised myself I would do a swimsuit post this summer. I’ve seen so many of my fave plus size bloggers rock bikinis/ fatkinis and look amazing in them, I felt like I really needed to stop being a wuss because I wanted to be as bad ass and inspiring as them. So as anxious as I was, I’m so glad I did it because I actually had fun and left the beach feeling really empowered.
I know we live in a world where even babies get fatshamed, facebook and instagram takes down images of fat girls in swimsuits, and fat shaming internet trolls come at you like zombies in a Walking Dead finale but I had to do this post for myself. and for all the women who read my blog and have thighs like mine or a belly like me. It’s about more than being fat in a swimsuit. It’s about refusing to be invisible in a world that only allows you to be confident and happy if you look a certain way. It’s about moving on from the people who knock you down just because of the way your body looks. And it’s about acknowledging that your body is beautiful even if it doesn’t look like something out of a magazine simply because it’s your body. It’s this thing that enables you to live your life, hug people, swim, laugh, work, create stuff- it’s so trivial to only have value and love for it based on its appearance.
Kimono- New Look
Necklace- Lovisa (similar)
Pom pom accessory- Lovisa
I got this gorgeous Curvy Kate swimsuit from TKD Lingerie, the colour is fantastic and little details like the paneling and the ties at the sides were designed to enhance curves. The only negative was wearing it strapless- it wasn’t supportive enough with out the straps, but apart from that- I felt beautiful in it 🙂