“This is difficult to answer because for so long I focused on the traits that made me feel ugly: My acne-prone skin, my larger than average stomach, and my double-chin. It was so easy to find faults in my body that I almost lost sight of the beauty standing in the mirror before me. Luckily there was someone else patiently waiting for me to take notice. She knew as I conquered my battles, including binging and emotional eating, I would remove my blinders one day at time. She was right all along; she was the girl in the mirror.
I cried the first time I accepted my body as a whole. There were no Spanx, no eyeliner, or compliments from my boyfriend. It was just me, embracing who I was, so-called flaws and all. No longer was I just a “pretty face.” (How many times have fat girls heard that one?) I was a woman, a beautiful woman – inside and out.
You see, a fabulous outfit, well applied makeup and the admiring looks from my boyfriend make me feel gorgeous. But the challenges, both internal and external, I once fought make me feel the most beautiful. It’s those challenges that lead me to love myself and see the beauty that was there all along.
At the end of the day, it’s just me and the girl in the mirror. A woman with the occasional breakout, fat stomach, double chin, and yes, even a pretty – no – a beautiful face, if I do say so myself.
While I may not like some of my features or regret past actions from time to time, I still love myself unconditionally because they are a part of me. And they make me feel beautiful.”
Thank you so much Amanda, you were one of the first plus size bloggers I started to follow and you still continue to inspire me with every video and OOTD post