My day started out with my mom informing me that I’ve put on weight again, to which I replied “so?”. She then said “what so, I’m telling you you’ve put on weight again” as she stared at me. I just said “so what?” and walked away but I have a quick temper and was fuming inside. It basically means she thinks I should lose weight again to look pretty. I remember her saying “stay at this weight, you look nice but don’t lose more, your face looks older then”.
I really don’t think she would understand that I’m quite pleased with what I see in the mirror- a girl with a big toothy smile, curls and curves that I have grown to embrace.
I don’t understand why I have to justify my body to anyone else or listen to opinions about it from anyone, even my parents. Actually, especially my parents because I know how superficial they can be. I have heard all the fat jokes and comments. Indians hate fat people. You grow up hearing things like “ her daughters are nice and slim”, “ she looks like a sumo wrestler”, “what happened to you? you used to be so thin and pretty?” It’s still considered alright to make fat jokes to the person’s face and the reply is usually a timid excuse.
I think I’m just upset that her comment triggered a reaction in me and I’m so afraid of something breaking this peace I have with my body right now. I wish I could tell her that a few months ago I was on the verge of becoming a bulimic again just because a boy didn’t think I was pretty enough. I wish I could ask her to spare me backhanded compliments like “you’re pretty even though you’re fat”.
I’m sure part of the reason they say these things is because they know the world’s tougher for a fat girl and maybe they’re worried about what people think of me
I guess it just bugs me that I’ve managed to change others opinions but not my own parents.
Anyway, after this incident, the next thing I did was check comments from yesterday’s post. I might not get my support from home but at least I get it here. I’m really glad you guys understand.
So, end (unexpected) rant, let’s focus on the good stuff 🙂
We received a sample t-shirt for one of my designs. I LOVE Bob Marley (most people from Goa do). I was singing Buffalo Soldier at four years old and I love his lyrics and quotes. I don’t know a lot of girls who would wear a Bob Marley t shirt but I find him absolutely inspiring.The boyf loved this so much he even tried it on (don’t tell anyone hehe) and I know many fellow Goans who would love this.
The artwork basically consists of a line drawing where his hair is made up of my fave lyrics. The fabric is a polyester blend so that it fits better, I think it looks better on curves than cotton because from my experience cotton t shirts stretch out and are hardly ever form fitting.
What do you think? honest opinions please. My dad said it didn’t look like Bob Marley and I’m wondering if we should just stick to cotton instead. You’d be helping me so much with your feedback 🙂
I think my t shirt looked better on the boyf to be honest, I’m worried about my boobs making Bob Marley’s eyes look weird. Oh well.
This design is part of our Icon collection, others include John Lennon, Kurt Cobain, Gandhi. I would love to hear some female icon suggestion from you, who do you love so much that you’d wear their face??