OOTD

A Little Bit Retro

September 16, 2014

This dress turned out to be a lot cuter than I expected and a lot less modern too, which is so unlike me! I know everyone loves ModCloth but I’ve never been into the whole pin up or retro look, I’m so surprised that I fell in love with this dress. I picked it up (or added it to my cart) because I loved the Wednesday Addams vibe, only this was a cuter/ flirty adaptation and I never noticed the pleats on the website. It turns out the pleats are everything because they really give a nice flattering shape to the dress.

The shoes are new and were purchased because I really needed comfortable heels, I’ve had a whole day of events and errands in these shoes and they don’t hurt. And they’re cute, right? I like the pastel blue. And this bag… I mean. It is perfection. Ridiculously adorable and beautiful at the same time. Zatchels sales scores are the best!

Once again, I could not bring my A game to this photo shoot. It’s still hot, everyone seems to stare even more and it’s really, really hot. I’m in this confused state of not wanting summer to end because I still have so many summer outfits to post on the blog, and wanting summer to end because I don’t think I can pose in this humidity anymore. #dubaibloggerproblems

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Asos Curve Dress (OOS) similar here (sizes S to 4x) and here / New Look shoes / Zatchels bag / Michael Kors watch

Reviews, Skin

Aztec Secret Indian Healing Clay- a miracle worker for oily skin & acne

September 11, 2014

Aztec Secret Indian Healing Clay Deep Pore Cleansing

Thanks to my hormones, I’ve been battling with my skin for the past few months. While I’ve dealt with oily skin and the occasional pimple since I was in high school, this whole PCOS- messed up hormones scenario left me with a crazy amount of acne clusters and scars that are my hidden shame (thank god for make up). While the acne has calmed down considerably, I still get a few spots once a month and they seem to stay on forever. Add this to the fact that I live in an extremely humid city, have oily skin and I’m prone to blackheads too- sounds pretty, no?

I was beauty grazing over on Amazon when I came across the Aztec Secret Indian Healing Clay, the reviews were amazing and the price tag wasn’t much so I wouldn’t feel stupid for buying it if it didn’t work. I am not exaggerating when I say this mask has changed my skin. After I wash it off, my pores are visibly smaller and the spots are noticeably smaller too, if not completely gone. I tried it as a spot treatment last week, applying it only to the spots and I kept it on for an hour instead of the usual twenty minutes. Some of the spots I’ve had for months vanished and the other newer ones are practically gone. Like magic!

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So, here are a few things you should know about the Aztec Indian Healing Clay mask:

  • The mask is 100% natural calcium bentonite clay and it free of additives, fragrances and animal products
  • You create the mask by adding equal parts of water or organic apple cider vinegar and the clay powder. I prefer to use it with the clay powder, water and apple cider vinegar. I didn’t find the mask as effective with water, the apple cider vinegar makes a huge difference but I have sensitive skin so I add water to the mix
  • It can be a little tricky to get the right consistency on your first try, you want to aim for a mousse like texture
  • Don’t use anything metal to create the mixture, I mix it in a cheap plastic container and make a lot at once so I can store it in the fridge for whenever I want to use it later
  • You can feel your skin pulsating under it. It kind of feels like your skin is heating up and throbbing a bit, but don’t worry, it’s not painful at all
  • The mask hardens and tightens on your face as it dries, it’s quite uncomfortable and you can’t move your face easily. Once, I tried to eat a Subway sandwich with this thing on and the mask starting cracking off. It got messy…
  • It can be hard to wash off, so you have to be patient. Also, make sure your sink has a strainer as lots of reviewers complained about it clogging their drains after they washed their face
  • Your skin will be red and warm after you wash it off. This lasts for about 10 minutes on me and I just make sure to slather on a good moisturizer
  • If you’re in the US, it’s should be available at your local supermarket. I haven’t seen it in stores in Dubai but you can purchase it online from souq.com and desert cart.ae
  • This mask sucks the oil and impurities from your skin, which is great for oily- combination skin but I think it would be too harsh for someone with dry skin

Aztec Secret Indian Healing Clay Deep Pore Cleansing I’ve tried so many products over the past few months and none of them were as effective as this mask. I have to stop myself from using it more than twice a week because that instantly smoother and cleaner skin is such an addictive feeling. I want my skin to feel like that everyday.

If you’re struggling with oily skin or acne, or just want an overnight spot treatment for the occasional pimple, I’d highly recommend this. I’ve tried Glamglow and in my opinion, this isn’t just cheaper, it’s way more effective as well.

 

OOTD

A Floral Shift

September 6, 2014

Shift dresses are usually not my thing, I feel like if you’re busty, they tend to float over the rest of your body and you lose all definition of your curves. However, I made an exception with this dress because I love the color and print a lot. I’m actually surprised by the fit of the dress. I sized up two sizes because I did not want it to be body con on me, so it skims over but I don’t feel like my shape is hidden. I’m only concerned about the sleeve length making me look broader on top, but I’m so in love with the cheerful colors and print, it’s fine. Not everything has to be flattering, and we’re not aiming to look thin when we’re not, right?

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Boohoo Plus shift dress / Asos silver shoes / Michael Kors bag and watch / New Look necklace

 

 

Events

H&M Studio Autumn/Winter 2014

August 26, 2014

I got a sneaky little preview of what to expect from H&M for the upcoming season, the Studio collection shows of the luxe side of H&M with lots of cashmere, chiffon, faux fur and leather.  As usual, I fell in love with the shoes, the patchwork leather boots are beautiful, and the red knee high boots? Uufff.

The make up collection was quite exciting too, I got a little swatch crazy with their new lip tints and lipsticks- I will definitely be stocking up on the lip tints, they were gorgeous!

Hope you like the pictures!


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The H&M Studio A/W ’14 collection will be sold in 260 stores worldwide and online from September 4.

OOTD

Party in Pink

August 19, 2014

I absolutely love this dress, the peekaboo pretend lace layer and sheer neckline make it super pretty with a hint of sexy, and it’s the perfect length on me (I’m 5’8 fyi). I was totally ready to get my dance moves out in this dress!

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Forever 21 Plus dress / River Island bag ( in yellow & brown ) / River Island shoes ( OOS) similar here / Michael Kors watch

Body Image, OOTD

Letting go of insecurities: I’m ditching the cardigan!

August 4, 2014

This post has taken a while to write, I love sharing other people’s body image stories but it’s still really difficult for me to talk about mine. I’ve realized that the only thing holding me back is fear. It’s basically the fear of letting myself be vulnerable, it’s why I can’t open up so easily on the blog anymore because I now know the faces reading it. It’s why I’m sometimes awkward at a party because I’m fully aware that most people don’t share my opinions of beauty or respect at every size. It’s also why, up until now, I have never dared to bare my fat arms. Cardigans and blazers were my comfort blanket and while I think I still managed to be stylish, the reality is that I was hiding behind them.

I can pinpoint the exact moment I decided to never show my arms again, and please note that I’m not sharing this story for the purpose of blaming my parents. I’d like to think I’m way past blaming them for insecurities I have chosen to hold onto. I’m sharing this memory with you because I’m sure we share a similar experience.

I was 11 years old and my mom bought me these super cute pjs, they were sleeveless and I was already pretty self conscious about being the “big” girl. But she gave me this awesome pep talk about how I should be “bindaas” and not care about what other people think. So, I wore those cute pjs but as soon as I stepped into the living room, my dad turned around and said, “ Should she be wearing that? It looks so bad with her big arms”. Those words hurt me more than they should have, I don’t fully understand why they had such a huge impact on me, enough to make me immediately change what I was wearing. They’ve always stuck around in my head since then.

I’ve attempted to go sleeveless many times but could never go through with it, I always felt like I looked so ugly with my flabby arms hanging out even though at the back of my mind, I knew wearing a cardigan or blazer didn’t really hide chubby arms. You can’t look thin if you’re not.

So why the sudden change of heart? I owe it all to the amazing plus size bloggers around me. I wanted to stop staring at their amazing sleeveless outfits with feelings of shame and inferiority, I really wanted to be as confident as them. How can I preach body positivity if I can’t face my own fears? If those ladies can rock it, then so can I. I really did not want to turn 30 and still hide behind cardigans, I wanted to be a super strong fat girl with an invisible middle finger on my forehead, which would light up towards anyone who thought I needed to cover up because of my size. The more I read that sentence, the more I want it to be an actual thing, like a mutant power or something!

Anyway, I just did it. I’ve always chickened out whenever I let myself overthink it, “What if someone says something?”, “ but it makes me look fatter” or “ what if people stare?”. I made sure I was all waxed so I couldn’t hide behind that excuse and one afternoon, instead of standing in front of the mirror and obsessing about it, I just walked out the door. We went to the mall and a restaurant, and and while there was a cocktail of insecurity, fear, relief and happiness churning around in my stomach, nobody around me gave a damn.

I’ve been forcing myself to go sleeveless since then, the man says he’s created a monster because I hate covering up now (also, he’s been bugging me about going sleeveless for years). It’s actually a lot more comfortable than wearing a cardigan or blazer, some dresses do look better without a cover up and there’s this amazing feeling of empowerment because I confronted one of my major body insecurities.

I still haven’t worked up the nerve to wear anything sleeveless around my folks, mind you I visit them with a full face of make up just to avoid questions like “are you sick?” or “have you gained weight?”. So, there’s still that one hurdle but I am constantly forcing myself to bare my arms on a daily basis, I even instagrammed it with #fearlessfatgirls so I wouldn’t be able to chicken out. I make sure to acknowledge the fact that I have big, fat arms and even when I don’t think they look so great in pictures, they’re my arms and I need to learn to embrace them.

It’s given my wardrobe a fresh perspective and my shopping options have become wider (though this might not be such a good thing #shopaholic), but I’m mostly enjoying the feeling of having accomplished a major milestone in my journey of self love.

I hope I can be one of those girls other fat girls look at and think, “I want to be like her” and maybe even feel inspired enough to face whatever insecurity they’re battling.

If you’ve ever played with the idea of ditching the cardigan or leggings, I 100% believe you can do it too. It really is like facing any fear, you just have to do it to realize it is possible and not as big of a deal as you think it is. And then it’s a matter of forcing yourself to not let anyone put that fear back in you, including yourself. My breaking point was being frustrated with how it was holding me back from being a good body positive, plus size blogger, a responsibility I cherish. Also, the rebel in me was aching to just let go. If I don’t care about what people think about purple hair, why on earth should I care about their thoughts on fat girls baring their arm? I definitely get stared at a lot more for the purple hair than my arms, it so silly!

And of course, there’s an endless list of amazing plus size bloggers who are there to inspire you and support you.

So, do you think you’re up for joining the #fearlessfatgirl party?

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Forever 21 plus dress /  Accessorize camera bag / River Island flatform sandals / Michael Kors watch

As always, thank you for reading <3